On the upswing

Sometimes curses are blessings in disguise. No really...

Sunday night I was very disappointed in myself. I forget what it was that did it, but I ended up reading Psalm 119:1-8.

1 Blessed are the undefiled in the way, who walk in the law of the LORD.

2 Blessed are they that keep his testimonies, and that seek him with the whole heart.

3 They also do no iniquity: they walk in his ways.

4 Thou hast commanded us to keep thy precepts diligently.

5 O that my ways were directed to keep thy statutes!

6 Then shall I not be ashamed, when I have respect unto all thy commandments.

7 I will praise thee with uprightness of heart, when I shall have learned thy righteous judgments.

8 I will keep thy statutes: O forsake me not utterly.

I really felt just like this. Verse5 - If only I could get it right. Verse 8- God, please don't give up on me though I know I'm terrible at getting it right. It was a great comfort.

But like I said, there is some small benefit in the situation... or big benefit I guess. If my mind wanders to a particular situation, like a guy I'm interested in, which would happen fairly frequently in any period of time... and each time I think about that situation, I instantly give it to God. I ask Him to take away the distractions and to let me focus on Him instead... especially this week of stressful 3 quizzes + block exams.... just think about how often I am thinking about the Lord! So it has been a blessing in the sense that, I have thought more on the Lord than I would have otherwise. Funny how that works...